i tried not to post up my personal problems here. But i have�no choice. I cant keep it to myself anymore.
two days ago when i was at work, i received a msg from my mom asking me to meet her. Whereas, i already had plans to buy some clothings at bugis with hidayah. So i asked if its really important. She asked bout me telling my probs to my aunt who has a big fucking mouth and cannot be trusted. I did not do what she asked. I came to her home just to hang around with my cousins, thats it. Then she get pissed when i say im sick of telling the same probs over and over again; bout her throwing me out and all.
she gets so pissed that she replied "........aku taknak anggap kau anak aku lagi ok puas hati" "... Aku taknak tgk kau kat rumah lagi" all i replied was just words of peace. But it didnt solve the problem there. I cried after getting that msg and called shadad to talk bout it, but i got ".....eh i busy la, nanti i call balek"
when�i was with hidayah, he called "eh u pukimak.. Jalan gi balek. U mmg sundal ah. U asal buat gini lagi, ape lagi yg u nak." i hanged up and he kept on calling. Then i decided to switch it off. When i was on the way home, i called him and "...ape lagu u nak. Nanti bleh bobal ah, i penat la nak tido tak paham pe sundal"
i took 80 home from bugis, dropped at hougang and walked all the way home to sengkang just to have a peace of mind. (FYI, thats what i always do when this happen) my cousin asked me to call and talk bout this, i did and he kept on saying "....kau tu anak pompan, kau kene paham asal dorang buat gini"
which part of anak pompan deserves this? yes i know im a girl, a daughter. But its the 21st century. I can take care of myself. For nearly 4years i have been with shadad, been sleeping over with him and all, but i didnt get pregnant, i didnt take drugs, i didnt sell myself. So whats so wrong? bout me always coming back home late? thats it. I just donot like to stay home, is that wrong?
i cried to myself the whole day. I have no one. My mother and shadad are the people i love the most who means the world to me. My mom throws me out, where can i go? i donot have a father no more. So where can i go?
i was so devastated, with the two people i love the most turning their back on me. I needed shadad when my mom did that, but in the end, the outcome twisted on me.
what wrong i did that u have to do this mother? just because i keep on coming back home late and not been coming home at some days? just cos of that? or is it cause that husband of yours picks a fight with�u all the time cos of me that u do this? y mother?
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